The Holidays

Aahh the Holidays!! I really really do love the holidays - but this year has just been kind of weird for me. I *always* know what I am doing for the holidays...until this year. And I don't like that feeling. I think it mostly has to do with my family being out of state and mom is in Kodiak. I spent Thanksgiving with a few family members of mine...but we went to extended familys house which was different because I really didn't know anyone, and I am used to being with MY family. On top of that - I am sitting there seeing all these "happy" little familys with their babies running around. And here I am, just me all by myself...wondering when the hell and I going to find happiness...I am looking at these people who are fortunate enough to have somone who loves them and have a family of their own...yet they already have one child they gave up one, or they can't hold a steady job, or live house to house, or have to always borrow money to feed their child or provide clothes for them. Yet, I guess when you have love...you don't need anything else.

So Christmas is creepn' up on us like REALLY soon! Here I am having a "pitty-party" for myself - becuase I have absoulty no idea what I am going to do for Christmas, I'm thinking I will just hangout at home with the roomie...then the roomie comes home all excited because she gets to go home for the holidays...well there goes there plans! So at this point I am getting super bummed out - thought okay I will just hangout at home, spend the day with my animals. How pathedic is that...I have a *huge* family and I am going to sit at home by myself.




I was sitting around talking with old school friend Daniel, who just came home from Kodiak and he was saying he didn't have anything to do for Christmas. And I just in casual converstaion mentioned how my mom wanted me in Kodiak for Christmas but I really couldn't afford to go. He suggested since neither one of us has anything to do and he needs to go to Kodiak anyways...he would buy the both of us tickets to Kodiak! So we leave Anchorage Dec.23rd and I return home Dec. 26th...I *have* to be here for our CU1 Holiday Party on the 27th. Daniel will stay in Kodiak because he leaves on his boat, The Handler...to go crabbing on the 27th.



I am *so* excited to have friends/family to spend Christmas with. Plus Daniel is from Kodiak so he will know some people to hangout with over there...well we will be with my family for the most part. Yummy I'm excited for Mom's Christmas dinner!!




I really wish I could be with Erin for Christmas - we could eat TONS of Christmas dinner then snuggle and watch movie after movie! Erin, you really need to move home because I miss you too much!

So really the Holidays won't be too bad :] I am excited to be with people I love...well I love Erin too but she will be in Minnesota, far far away from AK. But I do still love her with my ENTIRE heart!! xoox

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!